Friday, November 12, 2010

Coming Home

I thought I was at home; my home, home within me, home to myself. Then a constellation of evenst occurred that focused my attention on the question: What are my core beliefs?
I wrote two pages of what I was thinking was an answer to that question. Then I read what I had written to discover that each one was not, in fact, a core belief, but rather a judgment unfounded in fact about what the world "is like" and what other people "are like" and what I "am like". The use of the verb "to be" was a clue for me, leading me to the revelation that my supposed core beliefs were nothing more nor less than my static, programmed thinking about what "is".
With a great feeling of relief I realize that I have been in denial about a core concept that has run my life. When I apply a static label to define something, using the verb "to be", I actually limit my relationship to the living presence of the moment...
I've been decades believing that "I can't...because of", and the because refers to my supposed core beliefs!
I'm looking at that word "CAN'T, and I decided that the "T" stands for TROUBLE and I'm letting it go. It is no longer attached to the word "Can" in my thoughts and speech. Every time I hear that word "CAN'T", I'm at a critical choicepoint.
How do I want to live my life? I CAN live it in a way that is in alignment with my values, creating integrity with my thinking, words and deeds. Oh, yeah, I CAN!
I'm deeply curious how these words have landed in you and welcome your replies and comments.